Happy New Year!
THANK YOU 2020
HELLO 2021
2020 has been a tough year for everyone due to the pandemic, COVID-19. Nevertheless, there's still a lot of blessing that I face EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'm sorry if what I'm going to say after this might be unpleasant for some of you guys as I might sound a bit cocky, but my intention is nothing more than to show my gratitude to Allah that even in this situation, I'm still doing good. Also, to remind myself that Allah plan is never wasteful regardless how hopeless I think I am. We have been through MCO quite long, almost about 1 year. Some people have to WFH since March until now and some people still struggling and never had rest since the COVID-19 spread (kudos to our frontliners 👏). But, I am very lucky to get the chance to experience both equally up until now. Some week I need to standby in the office, some week I can just WFH. It's flexible. Things like this always help me to remind myself, there's must be a reason for every single thing that Allah had planned for us and I already found the reason why Allah put me here, where I am now. It's the thing that I've been wondering since 2018 when I started to become an adult. Alhamdulillah...
I know it's easier said than done or senanglah-cakap-you-are-not-in-my-shoes but I sincerely pray for all of you who are hardly affected with this pandemic will get your rewards sooner.
Okayhhh! I'm not gonna draggg my introduction too long.
Bismillah, Assalamualaikum 2021~ Agittuewww~ 😂
Awal tahun 2020 hari tu aku ada post azam tahun baru di Instagram. Jadi, aku rasa terpanggil untuk meng-audit diri sama ada aku buat/capai tak apa yang aku azamkan tu. Lebih kurang macam nak check KPI lah, meet expectation tak? Hehehe.
Lechugooo!
So, this is the list of my resolutions and I'm gonna comments one by one and rate myself. Satu azam satu markah. Since there's about 10 resolutions, so the full mark is 10 lah. And the marks is based on the effort, not the results.
Effort > Result 👍
- Lebih beriman dan berakhlak : 0
- Bukanlah menjadi hak saya untuk menilai tahap keimanan diri sendiri apatah lagi orang lain. I'll just reward myself with 0.
- Lebih tenang : 0
- Jauh lagi perjalanan untuk train diri sendiri jadi seorang yang tenang. Kalut sokmo, takut dey kokre~ 😂 Definitely 0.
- Lebih rajin membaca : 0.5
- Walaupun MCO started since March 2020, towards the end of this year baru aku start untuk mula membaca balik, to be exact, in Nov 2020. But, since the effort that count, then I should cherish myself.
- Masih jauh perjalanan untuk melatih diri banyakkan membaca dan aku masih kurang membaca buku. Tapi aku mula membaca artikel-artikel ilmiah sedikit, which is aku rasa it's a good baby step to start with. We live and we learn to take one step at a time, there's no need to rush~ (Ini lagu)
- Dan aku sangat teruja beli buku hari tu sebab nak gain habit membaca for next year (Harap-harap tak hangat-hangat tahi ayam. Aminnn~). Nak tahu buku apa yang buat aku teruja sangat tu? Tungguuuuu sehingga habis rancangan! Jugeummannn kidareo~ Stay tuneee~ Agittuwww~
- Semakin pandai dan kurang blur : 1
- I believe semua orang pun semakin hari semakin pandai, semakin tua semakin matang. And mostly manusia ni jadi bodoh bila bercinta je 😂. Alhamdulillah tahun ni tak bercinta, so pandai sikit tahun ni 😝
- More happy less angry : 0
- Sama seperti nombor 2, I still need to learn how to control my emotions.
- Wiser in making life decision : 1
- Because of this sendu year, I didn't really have to do a big decision. Tapi sekarang aku rasa aku dah semakin pandai buat keputusan mengikut kata hati tanpa terpengaruh dengan orang lain. Dan ini termasuk jugak saying NO to others when I feel like I didn't want to do something. Kudos!
- Less procrastination : 1
- I have lotsa to-do-list that I wish to do in 2019, but due to my laziness and procrastination, none of them I've done in 2019. NONE OF THEM! But this year I tried to 'pay the debt' and do the to-do-list one by one. Though I can't complete it yet, I'm glad I started it and really do it consistently. Kalau tanya aku apa benda paling payah dalam dunia ni, it is ISTIQAMAH. Nak start buat sesuatu senang, tapi nak maintain tu Nauzubillah payah dia. I can say it's about 70% done which is more than half and it's good enough for me (I don't want to be hard on myself).
- Have a clear skin : 1
- Alhamdulillahhh wasyukurillah, perjalanan aku untuk mendapatkan kulit yang sihat ni betul-betul buat aku sangattt bersyukur dengan apa yang aku ada sekarang. Siapa yang ada waktu muka aku teruk dulu sampai muka sekarang ni je yang tahu how extreme the transition is 😂. Walaupun sekarang tidaklah selembut kulit bayi, tapi sebab dah pernah berada at the lowest point, apa yang ada sekarang dah TERSANGATLAH cukup untuk aku.
- Healthy lifestyle : 0.5
- On off on off ikut mood. Plus, takut sikit nak keluar jogging time-time COVID ni. Sekali sekala ada buat home workout, tapi tak syok ahhh. I prefer jogging. Pemakanan jangan cakap, failed. Susah nak jaga makan ni, walaupun aku jenis tak makan banyak, tapi yang tak banyak tulah yang tak sihat pengambilannya.
- Back in October 2020, aku start ada habit nak minum Nescafe pepagi. Everyday pergi beli Nescafe kat office until aku rasa tak selesa dengan badan sendiri, sejak tu aku cut off caffeine balik. Pelik sebab dulu tak boleh minum Nescafe, asal minum caffeine mesti rasa angin satu badan. Tapi hari tu elok-elok pulak minum hari-hari sampai ketagih. In Nov 2020 aku start buang habit tu, ngantuk cemana pun kat office, aku minum air masak je. Dan Alhamdulillah seluar dah longgar balik 😂. Tapi this few weeks aku dah start minum balik sebab busy and need to stay awake and semangat all the time. Haihhh, lepas habis busy ni aku janji aku cut off balik 🙏
- Jumpa jodoh : 0
- Ini semua kerja Tuhan. Hehehe. Jawapan selamat. I don't put an effort on this. Nak kata tak kisah langsung, kisah jugak tapi gitulahhh 😂.
- But I do pray to Allah supaya kurniakan aku jodoh yang sekian sekian berdasarkan apa yang aku nak dan aku perlu, tapi one of my good friend said a very cliche words, "Doa saja tak cukup, kena ada effort". But being me who is too shy to approach, UNAPPROACHABLE and UNPRESENTABLE some more, I really don't know how to start searching or to be honest, I actually don't bother pun. Kalau ada pun dibiarkan seperti angin lalu je perasaan tu~ Setakat crush je pastu dah, habis situ. Asyik crush orang je, orang tak crush pun ke kita 😥. Hahahaha. I don't know how to mingle around and socialize. Huhuhu. Ottokeee~
So markahnya 5/10 sahaja. Allahuuu~ Masih jauh lagi perjalananmu ini, Wan Adibah. Huhuhu.
Tidak mengapa, barang lepas jangan dikenang. Buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih. Semoga tahun 2021 akan membawa lebih banyak kejayaan. Aminnn~
Aku berkira-kira untuk buat audit macam ni jugak nanti pada akhir tahun 2021 because I want to always keep on track on my self development. But since I think my resolutions for 2021 is a bit personal and confidential, I want to keep it to myself first until the audit day, kalau panjang umur.
Okay now, I want to show buku apa yang buat aku teruja sangat tu.
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| Tadaaaaa~ |
Someone recommend this book and I kinda think I need it. Katanya buku ni untuk orang yang nak unfollow the flow, yang nak keluar dari zon selesa, yang nak try benda baru, yang nak against the World. Not literally the World, but their own World. Since I was thinking to improve myself in many aspect especially in social life, I think I really need this book to gain some knowledge and at least to pinjam sikit the confident from the writer. I do believe every writer is brave, smart, confident and carefree because they can voice out their opinion and knowledge confidently to help people out there. It's a noble job, man. I wanna be like them too, hopefully.
And the other two beli sebab nak cukupkan quota untuk dapat free postage. Hihihihi. Tapi buku 'The Art of Letting God' ni memang dah lama nak beli sebab tertarik dengan tajuk dan designnya. 'Sebelum Kita Bernikah' tu pulak beli sebab katanya buku ni pasal self-improvement jugak regardless dah nak kahwin atau masih belum nampak bayang jodoh lagi. Tapi bila beli and tengok isi kandungannya, macam untuk orang-orang yang dah ready je 😂. Tak apalah, since doa saja tak cukup, ini masih boleh dikira sebagai effort kan? 🙊
Okay, that's all for now. Sekian sahaja audit dari saya. Semoga Wan Adibah menjadi seorang yang terbaik untuk diri sendiri.
Dear Wan Adibah,
Jangan malas!
Sentiasa kekal produktif but don't be too hard to yourself!
Control your emotions!
Tolong improve diri sendiri!
HAPPY 2021 EVERYONE!
-xoxo-
